(Originally posted on www.myfitnesspal.com on July 25, 2012)
Or...Have To vs. Want To
Yesterday was rough. Not gonna lie. Yesterday I didn't get out of bed until the last possible moment. The legs felt like they were slogging through wet concrete. If my Trainer hadn't been coming to meet me to go walking, I wouldn't have gotten out of the house. And even at that, I cut it short by a half-mile because I just didn't have it in me.
That was yesterday. That was a day when I "had to" go walking to get all my time/miles in for the week. And I hated every minute of it.
But then I had the option of taking today off. I figured out my work schedule for the next couple days (I have a job where it changes from week to week) and could have taken today off and then done more walking tomorrow morning.
And I discovered that I didn't want to. I wanted to go today. And when we went walking this morning, my head was in a much better place, and I clocked my best mile so far.
It all came down to being able to choose whether or not to get out and do something. I know that, realistically, I get to make that choice every day. But there's something empowering about knowing that you don't HAVE to, but you decide to do it anyhow. And for a control freak like me, it makes a lot of difference.